Nervous and excited about…a feeling?

It’s Friday night in Boone and I am undecided with what to do with myself. I’m in my room trying to work out what to eat and where I should go; do I want a full meal or do I just want sweets and coffee? Do I want to go explore an unknown place or just go to one of the nearby places? First world problems, I know, but still a valid problem for someone like me who has around 12 meals a day. I’ve loved my time here so far. It’s a world away from Sydney and it’s peaceful and relaxing. … Continue reading Nervous and excited about…a feeling?

Control freak.

And it begins: the side effects have hit mum in full force and she is struggling. The vomiting, the body aches, the headaches, the loss of hair. It’s all happening and it’s killing me. Bit by bit my heart is breaking as I watch this treatment take over my mum’s body. I’ve repeatedly asked myself if we’re doing the right thing with the chemo and then I remind myself that we need to do it to help prevent it from coming back. I also keep reminding myself that we are not fighting off cancer, we are just trying to prevent … Continue reading Control freak.