Today. Today was a good day. The sun shone a little brighter. The breeze was a little cooler. The coffee tasted better. Today was a good day. Why? Not because it’s New Years Eve and 2014 is coming to an end. The reason today was, and still is a good day, is because today was mums second last chemotherapy treatment. She has one more chemo session and the chemo part of her treatment is finished. FINISHED!!!! That light at the end of the tunnel is so bright right now and I can’t even tell you how excited I am. I know that mum is almost beside herself right now. This has been hard for her and oh, so exhausting emotionally and mentally. But she has been a trooper and has held up her end. It wasn’t always easy, but she turned up and did the best she could.
For me, I don’t know if I want to bust out some dance moves or burst into tears or both. Probably better to keep them separated as a crying, dancing 34 year old woman is not a good look. But you know that point where you are so excited but you just don’t know what to do and you just stand there opening and closing your mouth like a goldfish? That’s where I’m at. So excited. A little numb. And with no idea what to do with my hands; do I wave them in the air like I just don’t care or do I clap with glee like a kid in a candy store. Regardless of what I do with my hands, all I know is that I’m ready to look wave goodbye to the chemo ward and walk away without ever having to go back in there with my mum (or anyone else for that matter) again. EVER. AGAIN.
It would have been great if today’s chemo was the last one. It would have been an awesome way to close the door on 2014 and welcome in 2015. Rather symbolic. But that doesn’t take away the excitement of the situation. It doesn’t take away from the fact that my beautiful, amazing mamma bear has been through five months – FIVE MONTHS – of intensive chemotherapy and has come out on the other end. And in one more week, she will be finished. There are so many words running through my mind and heart right now, but I will save it until next week and bombard you with it then. (Don’t say I didn’t warn you!)
But today. December 31st, 2014, the last day of the calendar year. Today was a good day. And I just know, with everything in me, that next year is going to be AH.MAZ.ING!!!!!
Happy New Year peeps!! xxx